I certainly have a past!

I think this is true of me. I have a past of being selfish, abusive, meanspirited at times, and for all of that I am truly sorry. I was young and learning, and found these kinds of behaviors aren't acceptable anymore in my life. 

I think sometimes people judge others by mistakes or behaviors of the past. But if you look at so many great people in our history and see their bad behavior in their early years, you'd be floored. 

I personally think, if you have made many mistakes in the beginning of your life, and have learned from them, and don't continue with that same behavior they should not only be forgiven, but should be given a clean slate. Isn't that what you would want for yourself? I know I would.

We are so critical of others and talk about them instead of trying to lift them up. I know that was my experience. No one knows what you are going through, and many didn't know of the things that were going on behind closed doors. Not only during my childhood but during my marriage. I've heard so many mistruths.  I don't really care anymore because sometimes just knowing the truth is enough. 

I have finally come to the place in my life that just knowing  the truth whether anyone else knows it doesn't really matter to me anymore. I've stopped trying to explain. It's on a need to know basis with me anymore.  I no longer feel the need to be understood. I love it! I'm finally there.

I will wear purple if I wish! 



 

Yesterday I invited someone to a BBQ of mine that was a mirror of who I was a few years back. It was hard to watch her and see her struggle through life. She is now 88, and ya never know, maybe her seeing how a group of people can get together not gossip, not drink and get drunk, and not have a pity party. 

We all decided to embrace her, and show her love and acceptance, but it's hard when someone is going to their rig to get fresh drinks in between comversations. But hopefully some of our message got through.

She called last night late and said thank you for inviting her. It was a 50/50 should I or should I just have a good positive gathering with our friends. 

She did bring a bit of drama, but all said it was worth it, so it's all good. 

 HALLOWEEN

I love this time of year. I've always decorated. This year I don't really have much to decorate with. Not even sheets. Hum. I'll have to work on it. 

I remember a Halloween in Monroe Wa, with Heidi and Cory. They were small and loved Halloween as all kids do. So, I decided to make a grave yard. It was so cool. I also hang a fake guy with a pumpkin head from the second story window. It looked real enough for the local cops to stop, look, and then laugh. 

I am so blessed!
Thank You Great Spirit for all my blessings.
I am at Peace