Looks like we have to move soon!

Say it isn't so! But it is. Laurie is having a terrible time with the humidity here so we are going to have to start getting things ready to either move, or come up with another plan. So far, moving seems the only way at this time.

In order to have the funds to fix the RV and go to a warmer climate is to sell the mobile home and all we have and start over. We thought this would be the place, but Laurie is in so much pain on the days when it's humid I can't stand to see her suffer. We are lucky she is in remission and she hasn't had really bad flair ups, but they are getting worse, more often, and more painful.

We are hoping we can do all this before October. That is a lot of work to get done by then, but we can't stand to have another winter here. I don't want to see her go into a wheelchair when she is doing so good.

I won't be sorry to leave the area, it's changed so much. I thought I'd live here until my death, but it's so busy now days and I really don't have the connection here I once had. Most of my friends have either moved away or died. Sad but true. People are rude around here now, the gangs have really taken over Santa Maria. We are in a nice area, but for how long?

We are both ready for a new environment. Laurie is doing so good with her Buddhist group that is the hard part. But the more she learns the better. I'm so proud of her and all she's done since I've known her.

Speaking of how long I've known her, July 4th, 2013 will be our 2nd anniversary. I'm so thankful for her and all the blessings she brings to me. I've never met anyone quite like her. She has given me back my faith in human kind. I was giving up hope for sure.

Don't get me wrong, I've had many good people in my life, but I've had so much abuse, that I was and am a very broken person. I have trust issues, as many of us do, but she has managed to nurse me through my anxieties and has eased my pain.

She I believe is the very first person that actually appreciates me. That's huge! My family hasn't appreciated me, so this is so important. I want to do things for her. We are rarely separated. When we are we feel the need to get back to each other. Not in a sick way, but just can't wait to get back together and talk about our experiences, etc.

Since 2009 the lessons I've learned have probably been more than I have in all my years on earth. I'm so happy with the results and the hard work I do daily to improve my life and the life of others. I appreciate more, love more, and from this birthday forward will state my truth, and no longer allow those close to me to abuse or treat me with anything but respect. I have made my boundary's and I'm sticking to them. If that means walking away from those closest to me (Laurie excluded) then so be it.

The older I get the easier it gets to walk away from people that don't fit my life anymore. I've had to start practically over with people around me, but it has turned out to be a nice drama free journey of which I'm enjoying very much.

Since losing my religion I've also noticed a wonderful calmness and peace. I believe in myself and all I'm worth. I will never allow any type of religion in my life again. Going back to my Native roots of thinking, worshipping, and living. I'm so much more happy not to be bullied by some black book or allowing anyone else too either. Sweet.

We are selling on ebay and doing all we can to get the money up to get the RV fixed as soon as possible. So far, we've started off on a good foot. Tomorrow I'm going to put some more things on. This is exciting. I love our life.

It was very humid today. I felt so bad for Laurie. She suffers so when it's this humid. I didn't like it either. We just have to face the fact that we have to move no matter what. We were without electricity last night and I didn't get any sleep because I couldn't use my CPAP machine. I did manage to fall asleep, and I was short on breath the next morning, so I know I was struggling. Over 150 thousand homes were without power. Hope it doesn't happen again soon, that was brutal. I have a kerosene lamp so that helped as well as candles. I also have an extra batter I can use for power. But none of it was enough to power the CPAP. So since we have power now, tonight I should sleep good. We went approx. 18 hours without power. In this day and age, that's rough...ha ha.

Getting tired now, hope to go to bed soon and actually sleep. But before I do hope I don't fall asleep on the movie 'Under the Dome'.

Hope all is well with you and yours. Sleep well and know you are loved, just the way you are. Took me years to believe this one!

Namaste'





This is us at The Oasis Bookstore in Quartzite, AZ. We need to get back there here it's warm for Laurie!

Laurie enjoying the beach in Guadalupe near our home. There are days she can get out and not feel the pain so much, this was one of those days.