Being Dog Tired after a week-end of working!

Oh my goodness. It's been a busy, Laurie and I have worked harder this week/week-end than we have in a very long time.

Laurie was going to have company, but I asked that he consider another time to come visit, and he agreed. I'm so glad, because last night Laurie was in bed at 11pm. She usually stays up to at least 1 a.m. She's been suffering due to the terrible humidity we've been having. I have to tell ya, I really don't remember it being this humid around her before. But, then again, I didn't have a girlfriend that suffered from MS for me to notice as much.

But when she suffers I worry and hate it. Laurie has been having it rough lately. Having Jade has helped quite a bit. We are training her to walk properly with Laurie while she is still able to walk fairly well. Her training is coming along so well. I'm so proud of not only Jade for how well she's doing and how well she compliments our family.

I don't think I've ever been this content and happy before. Laurie really is the partner I needed to complete me and help me with my journey. Not someone I need to babysit, or tell what to do every moment. But she was brought in to my life to challenge me, and bring out the best in me, and she has done just that.

Just watching Laurie and Jade in their personal journey is so fantastic. Laurie is happy, content and knows she's loved for the very first time in her life. And I can say, I truly feel loved and accepted just as I am. I don't have to change to have her love me. And I KNOW she will never leave me. That is something no one has ever given me. What a precious gift.

I was thinking this today. All the misery others have caused me, all the lies, the betrayal, cheating, gossip, and all that I've gone through with others that professed to love me. Laurie makes up for it all. I'm grateful for those people that have been in my life in the past. I'm also grateful for the lessons learned through them. They say love is never wasted. I'm hoping that is true and they (people from my past) realize how they were once loved, and will look back on our time together and smile and think of the good times. But it's been my experience that those I've left have made me the bad guy so they wouldn't look bad, rather than take responsibility for their own stuff. All in all, it doesn't matter anymore because I've forgiven those that have done these things in my life, and I've also forgiven myself for my own short comings.

When you move forward without regrets it makes for a more peaceful life. After all, we all do our best.

I look forward to coming home when I'm away. I know things are warm and inviting for me.

I've had such a fantastic career. I've done all the things I've wanted. I've worked hard, played hard and known some pretty fantastic people.

I've been to fantastic places and my experiences on the earth has been beyond all my wildest dreams. And more is yet to come.

So this evening, when I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open, I sit here with candles shining on my table. My glass of wine close, and my sage burning to send my prayers of thanks to the Great Spirit in the sky, I can't help but smile and know that I have spent this day well.

I had a two hour party tonight in Santa Maria. There was a live Mexican band and they were fantastic. Their costumes were perfect, and the music was so beautiful. The food was great, the people were festive, and I love my job.

After the party, I came home and did some gardening. Our garden is winding down with the tomatoes and the squash is starting to show small veggies. I'm excited and can't wait to be able to cook them and dry some for our trip. The onions are almost ready. In fact, I could pick some now, but I don't really need any now, as I've been getting onions when I dumpster dive.

I'm thinking of doing it in the morning, but as I write tonight, I'm pretty tired. I know diving will involve a lot of work. To be able to get it all out of the dumpster, usually one by one, then go home and wash everything, then cut it up, or whatever needs to be done to preserve it or give it away. I do enjoy giving the food away that I get. I know so many people are on fixed incomes and would love the food rather than seeing it go into the land fill.

That is a pet peeve of mine to see perfectly good food go into the land fill. Tomorrow is trash day, so I have to get to the dumpster before 6 am in order to get anything otherwise it will be gone. So, we'll see how I feel in the morning.

We have so much to do. The RV needs to be registered and get the tags, but I have to have it smogged. So that will be on the list for tomorrow. The rv smogged, then registered, then parked back in storage until I can get the repairs. I'm getting closer so there is hope.

Then we have to give Jade a bath, and take her to get her nails clipped. I don't want to do anything like that anymore and rather pay someone else to do it.

I sold all my grooming tools during the yard sale for a song to a gentlemen that gives haircuts to prisoners in jail. Alrighty then He was as happy as a clam.

I sold so much stuff during the yard sale. I sold every bit of my jewelry! Including the display case. He really thought he got a good deal and he really did. He will be able to triple his money. But I did too, I didn't feel the need to be greedy.

I feel like some really good karma is coming our way. Laurie feels it too. It's our time. We've been helping people all our lives. Both of us had service jobs and did them well. Now, it's our time to enjoy life without worry.

Just wish we had more money to do more things. We believe this will come too. We certainly work hard enough. I'm certain that Laurie's art is going to really take off, and our Seaweed people are going to be loved by many.

I've starting my beadwork again. I'm doing better than ever too. I've been making leather pouches, and purses. They are so nice. People are complimenting me on my work, so I just know that I will be selling more than ever. Actually, I sell them as fast as I make them. I only have like three in stock at this writing because I sell them so quickly. Hope I get a picture of this one before it goes out the door. And I've been making a lot of seaweed rattles. I'll post pictures soon.

This week Laurie and I are going to work on getting our artwork in consignment shops. We've been asked by so many for some of our pieces. Just have to make time and get it done.

I'm so pleased with Jade! Laurie and I were talking of this. How, it could have been so much different, but she fits in perfectly and I can't be more happy. She is our forever dog now. They can't have her back. Now gonna see about getting any and all training we can afford.

I was informed that we might have someone that may be able to pay for Laurie's harness that she will need with Jade to help her walk. I'm so happy and feeling blessed. Everything is coming together for us in so many ways.

The candles are doing their trick. I'm loving this evening of rest and reflection. We have such a blessed life, I just want to scream it from the rooftops.

All the suffering Laurie and I have gone through, it's nice to have this time in our life together. We are both survivors of much abuse in our lives, and yet we aren't bitter, nor do we sit around and feel sorry for ourselves. We have made peace with the past and those that have hurt us, and decided to move forward together and enjoy the rest of our lives happy.

You don't have to be defined by events in your lives. You can get past them, and live a healthy and peaceful life. I'm proof.  Laurie is proof.

It took a lot of work on our part to get where we are. Taking responsibility for our own short comings, and the things we've done in our lives.

I was so wild as a young person. Laurie on the other hand was busy being a New Jersey police officer and keeping herself clean.

I've never been arrested or in jail, so that is a good thing. The difference between them and me, is I didn't get caught. Now, I live such a clean life I could be a nun.

I'm in bed usually around 9. I don't get wild anymore, and no more loud music. At least not while living here in this 55 and above senior park...LOL

I wouldn't leave my home before 9 to go party. Funny how things change.

I'm grateful for my wild times. I got out all the crazy, and now live a more zen type of life, without regrets. I'd rather meditate or walk in the woods than go to a club as I used too.

Besides, I have all I need at home. Clubs are usually filled drama and a lot of women I wouldn't take home to Mother.

Gonna do a little on line gaming with the free casino games before we go on the road. But we are determined to find them all on the road and play at each one. Fun fun fun.

Night all, and don't forget to be grateful for all your blessings.

Namaste'